For ME

I hope you all know that this blog is mostly for myself. I used to write in a journal with an actual pen. So sometimes on here I'll get emotional and vent about something. Like the last post. It is therapeutic for me. It's like I can convince myself more of things when I put it down in writing.

Last week I decided to try the Slim*Fast shakes. I have been really busy and find the task of planning 3 Healthy meals and snacks tiring and overwhelming. I just didn't want to think about it anymore! I'm usually running out the door in the mornings, eating in my car, going from school to work to school again... Mondays and Wednesdays have been the hardest. This has been my schedule lately. 9-11:30 I am tutoring two students in Reading. 12-4 I am working. 4:35-7:05 I am in class. So there's no time to get anything to eat, I have to have it all ready, or I'll result to fast food or not eating at all. Which both make me feel like crap.

I actually enjoy the taste of the shakes. And the meal bars. The shakes I like better. It's so fast and convenient when I am running out the door. They have about 200 calories, protein and fiber so it keeps me full for a couple of hours until I can eat some fruit or nuts as a snack. I put one in the freezer for a bit and it was delightful! Just a little bit icey. The only kind I have tried is the Chocolate Royal.

I usually don't like "fake" stuff, at least I try to avoid it. But it's not every meal, and I don't eat the snack bars, just have some fruit, nuts, FF popcorn,etc. so I don't feel so bad. It's actually making me more regular. (I know you all care about that) haha. But it makes me feel good.

Okay folks I am at 154 lbs. today.

Here's the deal. I can't afford WW meetings anymore. So I didn't go last week and gained a little back. I am really stressed with money. I only got 15 hours in 2 weeks when they cut back hours and that just doesn't pay the rent. So I gained. But I am down to 154. I feel like I have been here so many times. If I can just beat that 154 this week I will feel great.

I am moving in with my sister Jen end of August when my lease is up so I hope that will help with my stress. I am excited to live with her! I lived with Marissa, now it's Jen's turn. :) My family takes such good care of me.

My celebration today is that I REALLY wanted pancakes and sausage last night at midnight and DIDN'T make them! Thanks Brandon for the encouragement.

Here's to a great busy week!