I have been wallowing in self pity and depression. HaHa! (sounds so funny when I say it out loud). Okay so I missed last week's weigh in because I was up at Brighton and didn't get a chance. And then my life started getting crazy and stressful and I got really emotional and.... decided to quit. That's right. I decided to quit trying to lose weight because it's not happening. I know why it's not happening: I am not exercising regularly, I am eating too much food, etc. but I decided I can't eat less, and I can't exercise, it's just too hard, and there's too much going on. So I quit. I have quit trying physically before, just by eating too much or giving myself a "free" day, but never in my head. Well this week I quit in my head. It is just too much, too hard......Then last night I decided to give it another chance. I got to sleep early so I was well rested, had a wonderful dream about my vampire boyfriend, and woke up feeling much better. :)
I wanted to write how I feel because I think it's important to remember how I was feeling. I can't remember if I felt this way my "first time around" when I lost 30 pounds and I think it would have been helpful to know.
I am crossing things off my list today so I'm not so stressed about my acne face and braces, starting a new school, studying for the PRAXIS I, finding a place to live in a month, finances, and sending my best friend off to Iowa :(.
I am going to keep trying. I am going to start over new, like I've never had to do this before. I'm going to read over all my Weight Watchers pamphlets and start keeping track.
I will not be a quitter.
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Good for you Amber! I feel that way sometimes too. I wieghed myself today and I'm at the lowest I've been since June. Then I looked at my callender (where I write my weight) and saw that last time I was alsmost this low I gave up and gained 3 lbs back and have now just lost it again. That motivated me to keep going. I don't want to keep playing this back and forth game. WE CAN DO IT!
ReplyDeleteSo I was down 1.2 lbs yesturday...ate ice cream & fries at a goodbye party for Max's best friend and if I go by todays weigh in rather than yesturdays I'm up .3 lbs. I'm going to count yesturday. :) Besides I went to muscle up this morning so I'm sure I have a nice amount of lactic acid flowing through me to account for some of that weight gain too.
ReplyDeleteI think you are inspirational and amazing! You can do it! I can do it! We can do it! lol! Focus on little steps and don't get overwhelmed. Each day is a new day! I love you to pieces!
ReplyDelete:D I gave up...gained those 3 lbs back again. Ah...got to love it...but on the bright side I'm still 2 lbs less than I was a month ago. Motivate me Amber!!! ;) miss you.
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